Back to the beach and grateful for so many things, so many moments, so many simple joys. and the chance to blog:
Yesterday I talked with four friends about their individual eclipse experience. Each had a very personal and unique encounter with the minutes of midday near-darkness. My own experience was underwhelming at best in comparison to each of my friends. Some felt the temperature drop drastically, some the quieting of wildlife, others felt an energetic shift, and had an emotional reaction. Some had pets that acted strangely. I had none of these. Well, only my friend's Siamese who uncharacteristically wanted to be let outside with me, only to immediately climb a set of stairs and demand to be let in to the house again through a slider on the upper level. I complied. According to her mom, strange behavior indeed for this indoor only scaredy cat.
There was no one nearby to talk with about what was or was not occurring. The live streaming NASA feed I watched on my iPhone allowed me to feel some sort of connection with the rest of the world, but other than that, I very well may have been the only human on the planet. And I went with that thought, as I imagined what the ancients experienced during eclipses thousands of years ago. I dove into my friend's pool and observed the dimmed dappled light on the water, and felt myself connected with another self of me, an ancient one in a swimming hole surrounded by tropical plants. It was a bit otherworldly for a moment. But just a moment. Nothing to write much about. Truth be told, when I returned to my present self, I felt a bit lonely and isolated, and the accompanying emotions have spilled over to today.
For those of you who don't know me, I've recently stepped completely out of my old comfort zone and am in a constant state of change and release. While I've always looked to nature for guidance, especially animals, and heed their messages, that practice is even more prevalent now since I'm on my own. Sometimes this can feel isolating. Yet sometimes at the same moment it is all-connecting. And that is where my a-ha arises.
I did not need to experience a groundbreaking extravaganza during yesterday's eclipse. There was no major energetic shift I felt because my life is in a state of energetic shift moment to moment. This is part of the process of Ascension. And I'm ok with that. Because while yesterday marked a monumental shift of a new energy, the birth of the Divine feminine, the opportunity to look at our shadow self and see the light that cannot be blocked emanating out as petals on an enormous black-eyed-Susan flower, those of us who have been the light bearers, the keepers of the ascension flame, we're already well on our way. And we welcome the rest of the world, who although they thought they were observing a scientific astronomical event, will now nevertheless be affected by this Light.
So, this evening my sandy feet and I sit on a boulder listening to salty waves crash. In complete gratitude, I'm feeling a bit more connected to a few million more observers of the Light. Whether they know it or not.
Blessings.
Beautiful and powerful. Moments lived, so tempted to compare and follow a historical tradition of seeing how we fit in to the world panorama, so easily sliding into self judgment about how we stack up in both experience and person. May the sun's Light cleanse these outmoded, ridiculous leanings we still carry as a species. Even the glorious Light Workers who for so long have kept the candles burning find themselves finding fault..so quickly, without even noticing that we have put ourselves back in our place. In Wholeness there is no judgment and criticism, no competition, no better than, no comparing for the sake of feeling better about who we are...nope, just recognition that equality invites us to lay down arms and surrender to the unexciting reality that we are all the same expressions of Source Light. We are all doing the right thing at the right time. We are all blessed and sacred. Indeed, your awareness is Divine as it served to bring you closer to you. You jettisoned the fault finding and comparison and found favor in your simple personal choice to be. We have been so taught to pick at our own scabs, look for the flaw, humble ourselves by self criticism, or deferring to the prom king and queen as the fortunate ones. Enough, we shout...it is time to simply do as you did, sit on the rock with sandy feet and watch the parade of yesterday dutifully walk straight into the ocean to dissolve. Here you are. Here I am...moments to be, simply moments to be...what we are. Connected, indeed
ReplyDeleteA ha. Thank you. Peace and Love. Patty
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