Inviting all to check in and update on your progress with reawakening...looks like we have a whole crew of people who live alone. If you are like me, there are lots of diversions and reasons to put my focus on whatever. I want to remind us of a collective energy we are building through our personal commitment to our own remembering. Been almost two weeks since any of us have left a word here. Once a week was what we are intending. Momentum and commitment grows by action...and yes, I am talking to me too. Been a curious time with all the storms and changes and this and that. WHo Am I is turning out to be quite a question...not the easiest one to answer. Here's to continuing to show up for you!...blessings and gratitude for you
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Thank you, Mark, for your comment. It is so relevant to me. I was just speaking with a friend who suggested some changes to see if they would help the situation. They were not hard changes, but when she added the fourth suggestion I basically lost it. I said I couldn't do it, that it was too much. She pushed a bit and I said, I am feeling overwhelmed and can't /don't want to add one more thing. Her question was, Is it because you are alone and it hit a big chord with me. My throat ached with tears I would not shed over the phone. We completed the call and i went to do the first thing she suggested to get myself back together. I lay on some heat and breathed deeply and began to feel calm. So I checked in the hear the recorded foundation and truth, (which I can't get to play) so I checked the blog and I read the part about many of us living alone and I lost it even more. This time, because I was alone, I allowed the tears to flow and wash through me and just breathed. I have been 'one my own' for 16 years and have been happy and OK with it. This is probably the first time in many years that I have allowed the tears to fall. It was not comfortable and my throat hurt a lot. But then it lessened.
ReplyDeleteThis does not surprise me because when we talked you suggested that the body's wisdom is trying to bring me back into the body, which I believe means to stop thinking so much and feel. Thanks again for your post. Time to journal and to listen to the song, You're not alone.
Right now for me it is the roller coaster ride. Mostly good but then the angry times seem more angry, the sad times more sad. But as Mark says they flow, crest and then move downward and away. I am focusing on remembering this during all these emotional moments. Does the emotion have me or do I have the emotion. Linda, you have great courage to allow the tears to come and to express your experience to us. Congratulations. Thank you for sharing. I think I too will listen to the song. You're not alone. Also Linda, you are loved. Peace and Love Patty
ReplyDeleteThanks Patty. I appreciate your sharing.
ReplyDeletePS. Things are much better this morning after signing with the FCS choir and a descent night's sleep. There is a saying that everything is better in the morning, so this morning is it true.
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