Who I Am. What I Am. How I Serve

I read aloud the statements from Paul Selig's book before my meditation each morning. Afterwards, I tune in to one of the implants. And that's where things get interesting. 

Vibration. Body twitches. I'm now used to them. It took a while to get okay with the involuntary movements this go-round. My thoughts returned to previous physical episodes of seizure-like shakes that oftentimes had resulted in paralysis (a type of migraine I was eventually told). In the early days of these episodes, years ago, I would panic. I was trapped in my body, unable to move or communicate except for the weak squeezing of my hands or wiggling of my toes. And those actions took great effort. Some thought I'd had a stroke, others said it was the onset of MS. They were wrong, but planted the seeds that something dire was wrong with me. It wasn't. But I've healed that (thanks to my work with Mark), made peace with that, released the underlying cause of that. So what were these present jolts through my body?

The past several weeks have been a concentrated uploading. Imagine the thickest gloppiest frozen Trader Joe's orange juice kind of concentrated. 

When I tune into the Energetic Implants, what I'm perceiving as bursts of light crack open. It's like those cool plasma globes--electricity emanating out of a single point in my body. (I feel as if I should be sitting on a stainless steel shelf in a scientist's lab.) At first I simply felt the energy and had a jolt of twitching or jerking in that part of my body. I can now "see" the electricity, its color, hear sounds, tones, chords, that it creates. And in the last few days I'm realizing that it's not static within my body, but in fact simply the connection between myself and "others." The others are past and future versions of myself, other beings, other dimensions, other planes. There's emotion there. There's communication there. But not through words or even thoughts. Just a knowing. And a great sense of Love. Concentrated Love. 

It's difficult to put into words what I'm experiencing. My human brain wants to look to my past for clarification. Just as those initial seizure-like shakes 15 years ago brought up fear that I was having some sort of stroke, and the current ones initially led me to believe the migraines had returned, I so wanted to categorize this experience. But I cannot. It's beyond a sensoral, emotional, mental experience. It's connection. Connection to Source AS Source. All concentrated in these short electrical blasts. 

As a result, I'm stronger than I once was. Even a bit feistier. (Feisty is not a word that has ever been used to describe me!) I'm not afraid to ask for what I want because I'm being supported in every request. Every request. 

The result? New home to live in, new fun job with opportunity to make the money to support the healing work I'm doing, new positive people and situations entering my life. Endless opportunities. And endless gratitude. 

I believe the physical sensations are a reprogramming and lifting of my physical body. I believe my tuning in to the other aspects of self, previously hidden, concentrated centers that connect with Source, waiting to plug in for the uploads, have resulted in my body, at a cellular level, vibrating at a higher frequency. The very structure of my physical vehicle has shifted from the inside out. It's resonating on a new level. Some days I feel as if I glow in the dark. 

I trust this process. This statement continues to resonate with me:

"In my knowing, I align to my truth, and I lift my hands to be taken so that I may be lifted to the higher octave that is present now by my agreement. And as I allow myself to be lifted, I give my consent to support my world as it undergoes change. And as I accept this, I have faith in my being that the truth of who and what I am will keep me steady and knowing of my worth as a Divine Being in spite of all appearances, all claims, all fears that may be lifted to be witnessed as they are transformed. In my agreement, I say my name, ‘I know who I am in truth, I know what I am in truth, I know how I serve in truth, I am here, I am here, I am here.’ And as I say this, the song of my being claims me as the one who has said ‘yes’ to the journey she says ‘yes’ to in truth.”

So now I trust the twitching. I understand that for me this is how it's showing up, and I'm ok with it. And I live Who I Am, What I Am, and I Serve.